Today, I feel like falling into the abyss…

I’m so fucked up. I feel my temple throbbing double time and I could feel the sharpness of my jaw every time I grit my teeth. My eyes are hot and my lips are sore. My head is spinning and I feel so confined. I want to untangle my hair into the wind and surrender my body into that deep, dark hole but that would mean total absolution. I think I’m not ready. The air is unusually in the mood for a long sleep and I get invitations too. From time to time I would think about it and I would usually decline.